If your symptoms could talk what would they say?

The inspiring Dr Cat from Primal Trust asked me this question: what would your symptoms say if they could talk?

My main symptom is fatigue. Here goes:

"Hi Andrea, I'm your exhaustion and fatigue. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to 'speak', I want to tell you that I am the part of you that truly believes that you are worthless and pointless. I prefer it when you lie in bed too tired to do anything because at least that is familiar to me and I know you are fulfilling the crappiness I think you deserve. I know you work hard on your mental state to keep positive but I am as determined as you (I am a part of you) and so I come out in all your physical symptoms."

Wow. This came out when I was journalling. A huge nasty truth bomb. But from here, I challenged this further ... What changes do I need to make to not follow this pattern, this physical symptom and here's what followed:

"If I wasn't so nasty, I'd tell you that you need to believe in yourself, believe you deserve the everything, the healing, the more ... Because from there, my voice is quietened. Believe you can be healthy and happy ... Use your determination to do so, don't let me run the show. If you become more aware of me, allow me to be here, but it the ruler... Maybe changes will happen?"

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